I have spent many hours in life wondering what was wrong with me. And I can tell you from hours more in therapy and self reflection - there is nothing wrong with me.
Wild right?
People who have mental health struggles completely relate to this feeling. It’s partly the anxiety talking and partly the exhaustion from the anxiety that leads us to this conclusion.
We spend a lot of time worrying about everything because our minds have conditioned us to do so. We see “normal” people in the world who are able to so easily get through their day without overthinking and worrying about every decision and we don’t know why we can’t do the same.
I wish I could say that feeling goes away. I wish this was the part where I tell you a therapist or psychiatrist gave me a magic solution, but it’s not. For me, understanding that my anxiety is a separate entity that contributes to who I am but is not my whole, helps me move forward.
I like to think that the world made me unique. Yes I have to work a little harder to be “normal” but there is nothing wrong with me. I’m made with extra sparkle.
Something that’s also really helpful is understanding that people generally don’t walk around talking about the things they struggle with. Especially not in a social media best foot forward society that we currently live in. Everyone around you is usually struggling with their own demons - even those closest to you. Those people are not broken, you love them for all their quirks - even the ones you don’t know about.
There is nothing wrong with me. And nothing wrong with you. When you feel that way, take a deep breath. Pause for a timeout. Regroup. And come back with your head held high knowing that the world is lucky to have you and everything that brings with it.