How in the hell is 2019 over? That was a whole blur of things. But here we are. Sparkle season is coming to an end and I’m a glitter ball of emotion.
I still don’t do that whole resolution thing. But I am feeling significantly more in the spirit of reflection than I normally am this time of year. Sentimental is a new look for me.
2019 was wild. My body took a beating. From freezing my eggs to tearing my calf to the time they thought I had breast cancer. And to be honest; I have been nothing but unkind to this body that got me through all of that. I’ve belittled her, called her names, and I have been less than appreciative of the strength she has shown. She got us through some shit, and I vow to work really hard on loving her moving forward.
2019 was a tough year for my mental health. I committed to an entire year of consistent weekly therapy. I missed very few sessions and for the first time, I actually got real in them. I opened up and didn’t run from the hard stuff. I did the homework after session and I can see and feel the difference this has made. Both for me, my work life, my relationships — in every aspect of life — I am better for therapy. I vow to continue this investment moving forward.
2019 has got me in a career groove. It has not been all rainbows and unicorns all the time, but a good majority of it really has. I have found a place I thrive, a place I can build strong authentic relationships, and a place I want to stay at for the foreseeable future. I vow to appreciate and cultivate this opportunity moving forward.
2019 has made me reevaluate friendships. I’ve invested in people that invest in me and I’ve walked quietly away from those who do not. Sometimes I’ve done that loudly. But I have been a better friend to myself first, making me a better friend to the people around me. I am more open to being open. I am more comfortable with being vulnerable. And I am for the first time existing in truly healthy relationships of all kind. And more importantly, keeping those personal, private, and on a need to know basis. I vow to continue to love me first, and the people important to me a fierce second.
2019 been all the things. Positive and negative and every single stop in between. 2020 is something I’m excited for. I feel it in my veins that it’s going to be just one impactful year for me. I have no idea what voo doo witchcraft crystal sage moment I’m living in, but it’s a feeling I have so strongly, and I am so freaking excited to see where I go.
Happy New Years sequins! May all your dreams come true!