TW: Suicide
For awhile there y’all, I was going through it.
Between dealing with the whole Suns gestures wildly STUFF, leaving a job I was really excited about after only a little over a year, and health issues - I had been feeling just punched down at every turn.
At the same time - I struggle with making sure I am aware of my privilige. Because truly it could be significanlty worse.
However - just because I’m privileged and realistically ok - I can still struggle. And that’s important to acknowledge.
Because I have been going through it.
Trauma coming up from years ago, being in the media, being a super active and healthy person and then not having those same capabilities, leaving a job I had been loving but that turned into a complete nightmare - all of that alone is a lot - together - whew.
The point is - life is hard, different degrees of hard sure - but hard. Take the time to say “ok I’m struggling.” And then get perspective and get help.
Therapy, mental health breaks - medication if you need it. USE IT ALL.
I think we are all going through it a bit right now and have been for going on 3 years. Having that awareness to say it out loud and get the help you need matters.
Nobody is asking you to sit in silence. And if you’re privileged, nobody is asking you to apologize for it, simply be aware of it.
I feel like I’ve been going through it on and off since the pandemic happened - much like we all have. It just took me a ridiculously long time to admit it.
But as we’ve seen lately, suicide is becoming much more prevalent. And that hurts my heart. So please, please speak up if you’re going through it.
Speak up, speak often and ask for help.
If you’re going through it, there’s help.
There’s safe spaces and resources available and people who want to be there.
If you’re going through it, it’s ok. You deserve to feel seen, heard and supported.