Don't Call it a Comeback

It’s been about a year and a half since I was active blogging. I’m a firm believer in hobbies only being worth it if they bring you joy. And for a while, blogging stopped bringing me joy.

But this season of life is calling me to write again, so here I am!

What have I been up to?

Well, I finally made it to Denver. I left Colorado in 2012 and since then have lived in AZ, CA, TX, CA again and now CO! I fell in love with Colorado and Denver specifically in 2012 and always wanted to find my way back. The stars never aligned until COVID, where I was able to make this dream happen. I’ve been here as a homeowner going on 3 years and that is the longest I’ve lived anywhere since 2010.

I’ve built a community here. I have a really solid friend group, a home in a location I love, a fully remote job in tech and Nash is still my sidekick through it all!

Work is no longer my entire personality. In 2021 and 2022 I went through yet another really awful work situation, dealt with everything that happened working at the Phoenix Suns, had some really terrible health issues and was extremely unwell. Mentally, physically I was at the worst place I think I’ve ever been in life.

I took 6 months to not work, to travel, to go through intense therapy and to be incredibly selfish with myself. And it forced me to look at who I am outside of work. I didn’t have work to lean on or define myself by. And it was the thing I needed to finally kick my value/self worth tie.

But more on that later.

I’m somehow more open and more private about my life than I’ve ever been. I keep a lot to myself but share the things I’m passionate about the world knowing. Mental health, human rights, safe workplaces - all things I’m very candid about. My personal relationships, future plans and the like, that’s for me and a chosen few to know about.

For now, I’m back on my blogging bullshit, and I hope you’ll stick around for the ride.

Back to our regularly scheduled programming...

It’s been almost 6 months since I published a blog. In the almost 6 years I’ve been writing, that’s the longest break I’ve ever taken.

The last 6 months have been filled with really high highs and really low lows. I moved states, bought my first home, fell out of love with a job, had to deal with a past job being very much in the spotlight (and bringing up old traumas), had a tumor removed in my breast - and so much more.

Life became really overwhelming. Blogging felt like a chore. So I stopped.

I blog because it’s a form of therapy for me. When it stopped being therapeutic, I knew I needed a break.

I’m still dealing with some of the heavy things I had been throughout these 6 months. I am however I think dealing with them in a much healthier way.

I’m not sure if this will go back to being a weekly thing for me. I do want to get back to writing, but I want to make sure it stays fun. I want to make sure I’m continuing to focus on balance and not doing all the things all the time.

We all know I love a list. So I wanted to make a list of some of the things I’ve learned in my time away…

1. Rest is not only ok, it is required in order to thrive

2. You don’t owe anyone an explanation for why you choose to change and grow

3. Your goals are allowed to change. Your priorities are allowed to change

4. The people that make you feel bad in life aren’t your people. Stay away from them

5. The people who make you feel like sunshine are your tribe. Keep them close

6. Be selfish. Put yourself first

7. Life is complicated. Some years are full of utter devastation and intense wins. That’s confusing. It’s ok to sit with that.

8. If you don’t ask for what you want, you won’t get it

9. Careers don’t define you. Titles don’t mean much. You can pivot at any time

10. Your time is valuable. Never forget how important it is.

I’ve had a super confusing year. It’s been a lot of BIG changes. I never really sat to experience all that’s happened and that means I’ve missed a lot of unpacking the emotions with it all. Some days I can’t get over how lucky I am. Other days I want to quit everything and move to a new country. I kind of think that’s life for a lot of us these past two years.

I hope my passion for writing and the words come back to me in droves now that I’ve got a better handle on things. But if they don’t, that’s ok too.

For the time being, we are back to our regularly scheduled programming here.