In the last 3 months, I've had some real struggles as well as real successes with my anxiety. It's odd to feel both in a place of setback and a place of growth, but I am somewhere in the middle of both.
And something I've realized lately is that being an anxious person means balancing between having bad days and having good ones. That we have moments where we feel at our worst, but as long as we are recognizing them, we are working towards being our best. And the more you can keep yourself in the middle of setback and growth, the more you are able to keep a balanced life on your journey with anxiety.
As simple as that seems, for people with anxiety, we crave that far right end of the spectrum, that normal. It never truly occurs to someone with anxious thinking to exist happily in the middle. I've mostly thought of the world of mental health as either you've got mental health struggles or you're normal - and that's incredibly wrong. The healthiest mental state is that middle of the spectrum balance.
So my focus these last three months has been to find the place that I can have anxious out of control moments and then be able to look to the other end of the scale to find peace.
When I have a day that feels overwhelmingly stressful, I consider it a huge success to not breakdown. Because lately - there have been some days that I have wanted to break down. But I don't. The time I spend in my chaotic mindset is less. The time coming back from it, and focusing on how to either change my mindset or change my situation is occupying way more of my day.
For me - this is a breakthrough. It's a new way of understanding how to exist in a healthier mindset and hopefully build a long term plan. I've still got some unreasonable days and ridiculous reactions. And that sucks. It probably always will. But living a balanced life with anxiety and mental health issues is very possible.
It's on you to put the time and effort in and make the active decision to take responsibility to be the best human possible.