Even though it often seems my journey has been a wild one without any plans, I can assure you, it’s all been carefully crafted. I’ve spent hours making lists and having conversations agonizing over the choices I’ve made and the paths I’ve taken. There’s never been anything but the plan for me.
This next step, it wasn’t planned. It wasn’t even remotely on my radar. The next part of my journey was presented to me out of the blue.
And that’s why I have to take it. Because it’s not part of the plan. It’s a plot twist not even I expected.
You ready for this?
I’m going back to Northern California.
I love where I’m from. But I never thought I’d move back.
And get this - I’m going into tech.
I’m moving to the most expensive market in the nation, into an industry I’ve never worked in.
Everything about this next move is unplanned. It’s out of my comfort zone, out of my immediate breadth of experience, and I could not be more excited.
I told myself I wanted to shake things up. Over and over I’ve talked about needing a challenge. The universe heard me. And it sent me a college teammate who believes in me enough to help make this a reality.
For me that’s the coolest part of all this. I’ve spent my entire career in situations that I’ve been told to compromise my ethics, and I never have. I’ve been put down and belittled for being who I am and now, I’m being pursued for it.
I know I’m talented. I know I’m a good human being. I know I can and I will excel at this new adventure. But having a team of people feel just as excited to have me, that’s one incredible high.
I’m a naturally positive, easily motivated, go getter. So I could be seeing this next journey with the most rose colored glasses. Truth is - nothing is perfect, and this won’t be either. But it’s the most confident I’ve ever felt in a decision in my career.
Now Id love to tell you all about how it goes - and to some extent I will share pieces. But tech is tech and the secrecy that comes with it (secret agent? Jk, maybe). So I’ll update you on how I’m feeling with it all and how it’s going in general, but I’ll be keeping a lot of this next one to myself.
The lesson of this wild, horribly written, long run on blog? I have no idea what I’m doing. The plan is fucked. I think getting off the path and taking a new one is worth a shot. Putting all of your trust in yourself and who you are is the biggest risk you can ever take. But if you can’t count on yourself, who can you count on?
Be brave Sequins. Believe in yourself. And most of all, believe you deserve it all.