2018

Happy New Year Sequins!

I have no idea what just happened to 2017 because I swear to God I just moved to Texas 20 minutes ago, but here we are, January 1, 2018.  Holy shit.

I'm sitting here trying to reflect on 2017 and I honestly just have a lot of memories on an airplane watching Girl's Trip 32 times laughing obnoxiously while Carol from Iowa shot me dirty looks from peasant class.  STFU Carol, let me live my first class life.

2017 brought me to yet a new state.  It brought me a whole new career in a whole new industry I honestly knew nothing about.  For the first 6 months, I mostly got by on charm and pure grit.  The second 6 months I've questioned myself, my skillset, and everything about what I know.  And at the end of every day, I have reminded myself I didn't get here without earning every moment.

2017 brought me the strength to commit to my mental health.  It got me into therapy, into actually trying to tell my anxiety to step TF off, and it's challenged me to chill out.

2017 has brought me a body I'm in love with more than I have been since being 98 pounds and growing boobs.  Because of my discovery of new ways to workout that don't bring me pain, I am physically stronger, healthier, and happier.  And I'm surely not 98 pounds.  Still got those boobs though.

2017 has brought me new people.  Who knew a liberal agnostic loud crude (but really pretty) California girl could find one of her closest friends in a Christian big hearted Texan (Be cool guys - she was born in California and her family is just the bees knees). 

2017 has brought me closer to me.  It's challenged me to face things I frankly don't like thinking about and forced me to feel things I'm not fond of feeling.  Because of that - it's given me confidence in this sparkly yet out of her mind woman I've become.  It's also taught me when to face my flaws, apologize when I need to - and move TF on when I don't.

2017 I don't really know if you even happened because I swear it's still January and I just got to Texas, it was snowing and I couldn't by alcohol before Noon on Sunday.  But here we are - 2018 and I'm itching to see where it takes me.  All I know is don't miss me with that First Class ticket.

New Year Same Sparkle

I LOVE NEW YEARS. Realistically - I love the entire winter holiday season.  But NYE is defined by sparkle and celebrations and bubbles and excitement.  I LOVE ALL THOSE THINGS!

That being said - I do not love the dreaded New Year's Resolution.  I've always believed that there's no reason to wait for a new year to make a big change.  Want to quit your job and follow your dreams?  Do it now.  Thinking about popping the question?  Why wait? Craving a healthy lifestyle?  Get started!  The point is - why are you waiting for some arbitrary date to motivate you?  If you wont do it now, you're not anymore likely to achieve those goals because it's January 1. 

Can we all just skip the resolutions, stop crowding my gym, and focus on what NYE really means?  Dancing on tables in sequin dresses while drinking champagne with your friends.  I swear - scientifically that's what it stands for.  I think NASA discovered that...or something.

Ok you're right - the arthritis in my feet will keep me from dancing on tables this year but being a grown up means I can afford the good bubbles and the fancy dress.  Quick question - do they make sequin onesies?

While I will not be participating in the tradition of the New Year's Resolutions - I will continue to sparkle.  I will continue to work on bettering myself.  I will keep chasing the dream.  I will work on my physical and mental health.  I will never stop learning.  I vow to never stop speaking my mind (although sometimes I should, whoops!).  I vow to make everyone laugh as much as humanly possible.  I promise to keep asking the hard questions.  I promise to work on relationships with myself and others.  And I solemnly swear I will always always - be up to no good.

New Year - Same Sparkle! See ya when I see ya 2017!